This is a long journal is about deep, personal stuff and major changes to this account. If you are going to drop a comment or actually care to read this, please read through the whole thing.
Okay, I need to just let this out because it's been building up in me for too long:
I need to take from Adventure Time. LIKE A BIG BREAK. I mean, my style isn't really AT because it's got bones and stuff and I'll have to make it more AT when I return to it.
I know this is fun and all, but I feel like I have so much more potential. I'm in a very important part of my life where I have to step up my game and start showing off my talents to clients and my instructors. This cannot be done through just drawing simple cartoons. I want to draw pictures that astound others and create a sense of wonder.
I know a lot of my watchers don't actually look at what I do, especially when it's not AT-related. However that actually doesn't bother me too much. I'm an artist, one who draws because they like to draw and develop and make worlds and stories that pull people into new realities. I don't need others to get me to draw, I can do it on my own. I'm not saying I'm a lone wolf, but I want to make some things on my own accord.
My mother has a saying that's engraved in my memory: "Variety is the spice of life." If you keep doing the same thing over and over again, you'll soon get bored and need something new. Having a lot of choices and pleasures keeps one's life fresh and fun. The same thing can be said for art, especially when clients and businesses are searching for people with multiple talents and perspectives. I cannot be drawing the same thing over and over again. It's not as fun as it once was.
That's why, once I upload the picture of baby Gemaine (she's been born recently, but I've been too slammed with college projects to draw her out), I'm going to stop drawing AT stuff. RPs will still be available, but they're going to be ones that really advance story and development of my characters. A part of me wants to just abandon this whole ask community because we've all spiraled off from the main story it seems to the point that (in my opinion) we could make this our own universe after a few changes to the lore and such.
It's hard for me to come to this decision, but if I am to be a professional artist, I have to become more professional. I could have just let this all go and abandoned everyone I know here, but many of you are just too fantastic to let go and my time here is just amazing.
I have to return to my Level Design project now. I've taken too much time typing this out and I need to get back to work. God I can't believe I've logged in +100 hours in four weeks on it = ~ = This should be a final, not a midterm.